Life Is Beautiful

私はもはやあなたのモンスターだん
"I am no longer your monster"



Hey there! Names Lauren Colby, Im Queer, Pagan, an anime nerd, a video game nerd. and just flat out weird. I like graveyards and ghost stories. Im also in love with my girlfriend Nell

Here’s a little story about me.

Lauren Colby Patrie. born on November 28th 1993. That makes me 18.

I am a lesbian. I came out to my friends when  i was 16 and came out to my family at 17. I started a GSA in my school. 

I kinda suck at school but first let me just start at the begining.

My brother was born 2 years after me, and when he was 3 he was diagnosed with Autism. When i was 8 we moved from Haverhill MA to Georgetown MA, My parents got divorced and my grandfather died all within the same month. School wasn’t the best for me, I’ve always struggled.  I used to get teased so much, i was much too friendly, innocent, and naive about the world that my mother had sheltered me from.

As middle school came around the corner the harassment became worse. Everyday i was being told i was a faggot, that i was worthless and nothing but a wannabe Emo kid.

8th grade :

In 7th grade and into 8th grade i started cutting.  contemplating suicide all the time. I became a depressed alone girl that was different from when i was younger.  

9th grade:

 

I was known as that wannabe emo kid. I got my first boyfriend at 15 and we went out for 9 months. he became very controlling and sexually harassed me constantly. When i told me i might bisexual he told me i shouldnt have been looking at other girls and if i was bisexual then that meant i didnt really love him. I kept to myself.

10th grade:

 

10th grade came around, i was single and happy once again. Still was having an issue with self harm. started to wear make up and dye my hair 

I got into a relationship with a 21 year old that costed a very good friendship i had between Nathaniel and I. that ended 9 months later when he cheated on me with 6+ girls.

11th grade: 

11th grade i started wearing all black and started seeing a friend of mine Spencer. He also costed the friendship Nathaniel and I had for a good year and it was the last time i harmed myself. After spencer and i broke up after 4 months of dating. I shopped off all my hair i had.

I chopped off my hair and practically every other month dyed it different colours.  I stopped cutting for a year so far. and  i started taking Prozac and it has been the best thing in the world for me. I have an amazing girlfriend named Nell <3 and i love her so much.  I got snake bites and plan on getting more piercings and tattoos. 

this is me today and i havnt been happier in my life :) 

Id like to thank  Nell, Bobby,and Nathaniel for making my life worth living <3 i will never forget you guys